Monday, June 11, 2007
looking forward to meeting up with ghc (: yayye and i can tell maine everything later! :D PRETTY SERENE YOU is coming too HAHAHA. okay so maybe lays and qi are pretty too but qi likes to bully lays and lays likes to bully qi so they're bullies but they're still pretty :D oh! did i tell you ser ser posted our pretty picture? she's so love.
and omg weilao and xubie are like on the same day? tell me im wrong. the mood so clashes! qi si ren le. present making soon!
trust is a big word, thank you JASSIE for letting me turn to you. at least i know you are special and that wouldnt change <3
you lied. you just lied and thought i would be gladly taken in. i really hate to witness all these, but yet you keep coming right in front of me. i thought you were different, i had faith. just when you told me you lost all hope, i tried to give you hope. but now, i've got no hope myself. if you opened my heart right now, it'll all be full of emptyness. EMPTYNESS. you know why? i really dont know what to think already. everything's coming down. where were you, when i needed you? where ARE you, now that i need you? gone. the world is beautiful, and i'm not gonna let you change that. i can choose to ignore, or pick a fight. but i guess empty hearts dont pick fights because they have no strength to charge on. oh wait, im not an empty heart, i feel disappointment. realisation that you arent what i thought you were. why must such a cruel realisation happen. why? you could have just had me fooled. you were so perfect before, but it was just a lie. perhaps you didnt do it on purpose. either way, you made me lose faith. dont give me all that, because whatever you say now doesnt mean anything. or maybe wait til i've sorted everything out. i gave you time, i gave you hope, but now, who will give me these? i've never felt so useless before. i detest everything because the pretty things in the world have turned ugly, i dont know when you may appear again. no wait pretty things do exist. i'm just blinded, JUST LIKE HOW YOU ARE. stop, listen, and feel. trust.although im saying so much i still love you and hope im wrong. i'd rather be wrong this time.
It's a beautiful disguise.